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The Lemon Twigs

Live at Barboza

First time going to a show in a basement like this in a while.

Wonderful show! Great performance. I love these guys.

10/10

11/15/2024


American Psycho

This one was sillier than I thought it was going to be.

A gleeful romp through what it really means to be a man!

7/10

11/15/2024


Office Space

Mike Judge

Dumb movie, but it’s so nice in some parts, that I really appreciated it.

Maybe I’m already corporate enough to feel this one for real. That’s funny, huh?

6/10

11/14/2024


American Beauty

I feel like this film is pretty corny most of the time, but it has a few performances, a few lines, a few sentiments that mean a lot to me.

That’s really all that matters, so I’d say I liked it.

I’m kind of tired of seeing suburban stuff, but this film actually made it seem okay for once, like a hell you can actually escape from.

8/10

11/14/2024


Two Star and the Dream Police

By Mk.Gee

This album put me on my ass!

I’d recommend it highly. It’s the most earnest music I’ve heard in a while. Maybe I’m nuts or something.

It feels like this guy really means what he says, that’s all.

Check out the videos at mkgee.com.

9/10

11/7/2024


Robin Hood

1973 one

Too much stupid lion guy. This one’s the best otherwise though, super nice stuff.

7/10

11/10/2024


The Legend of Bagger Vance

Movie’s a cool idea, but it’s about the corniest flick you can imagine. Almost feels like the direction wasn’t right here.

I think it works pretty good in the middle quarter, when stuff’s coming together for the guy’s golf game. Cool editing going on. But otherwise, this one pretty much doesn’t do much for me.

3/10

11/9/2024


Scott Pilgrim vs. the World

I mean, come on!

9/10

11/5/2024


The Green Knight

Silly movie, but also nice and reverent about some stuff.

Not much to say, it’s pretty much what you’d expect.

6/10

11/7/2024


The Curious Case of Benjamin Button

Pretty fun flick. I like whole-life stories, and this one makes a lot of sense.

The trouble is that it’s all about the gimmick the whole time. It loses the whole point of the whole life story, which is showing you how people feel. I guess Benjamin is a PTSD loner who has to go figure himself out and come to terms with things, but I still wish I got a little more of his feelings in this one.

7/10

11/5/2024


Shuna’s Journey

By Hayao Miyazaki

Great story! Wonderful execution. Makes an old busted fairy tale into something we can all step into and get behind.

The action is glanced over, as you’d expect from a graphic novel (vs. animation).

One thing I learned is that Miyazaki didn’t start Studio Ghibli until he was 44 years old. The more I learn about these things, the more I realize they’re long, arduous processes, where the best way to go is to work in real-world settings for a while, learn the ropes, become a master, and then start to take big swings.

I love this book, man. And the best part is that anyone could write it.

9/10

11/2/2024


HANA-BI

By Takeshi Kitano

Much less floored by this one the second time around, but I still haven’t really seen a film quite like it.

7/10

11/2/2024


Nausicaa, of the Valley of the Wind

This is the perfect fantasy film, in my book.

Super grounded, very relatable, and reverent for the kinds of things that happen in the world. The film is about war, pollution, apocalypse, but it’s so hopeful.

The characters are unforgettable, larger than life, and endlessly charming. Lord Yupa, Obaba, Kushana and Kurotowa, Mito and the rest of the old men… They’re all the pinnacle of their archetypes.

The score is phenomenal, the colors and the imaginative environments are wonderful, and even the Disney dub from 2005 is one of the best of all time.

10/10

10/19/2024


My Neighbor Totoro

Film is as charming as I remember it being.

I guess the one part which really surprised me is how emotional little things made me. In particular, when the kids are visiting their mom in the hospital, and they’re so happy to see her.

These kids, they’re trying to be as tough as they can, right? Trying to deal with their mom’s situation. They’re pretty independent, since they have to be tough, like that.

But the mom turns to her bedside table and pulls out a hair brush, and starts brushing Satsuki’s hair, and it’s like she’s just a kid again, with a normal mom who takes care of her.

That made me cry this time! Awesome stuff.

7/10

10/17/2024


Turning Pro

By Steven Pressfield

And here, the cap on the trilogy, is Steven’s best book. This one somehow manages to be head-and-shoulders better than the other two, which I’d consider to each be 10s.

Some books are too important to a person to ignore. This is a book which I have needed to read for a long time, and which I can rely on as a companion in the decades to come.

10/10

10/06/2024


Jin-Roh

Good flick, nice pacing, cool direction. The writing’s pretty weird, though. I never really think I got Mamoru Oshii’s obsession with re-telling old tales with some flashy twist.

Also, I don’t usually get films with emotionless characters, but this one’s a nice balance.

5/10

10/6/2024


Poor Things

Very offensive, brash film. I consider it to be highly effective. The film appears to be complex, but in truth, is dead simple. What would a child think of the world we live in (and the underlying human condition) if they didn’t have our rationalizations of culture?

I think the sex is funny, pretty much a circus film. The guys are as you’d expect, and it exposed a nice little feeling in me about possession and obsession.

The insight is this: be completely earnest at all times. (S)he who does as she wishes will win the world. The men in this world are unhappy because they stake their lives in women, or in their work. It’s really damn hopeless for these guys, really, as I don’t really see a way out here.

6/10

9/25/2024


Sun and Steel

By Yukio Mishima

Trying to communicate some very tangled stuff, this book.

I loved the first half, feels more personal than Mishima’s other stuff. Pretty plain - Mishima realizes that writing is individual, but experiencing life as part of a group is a pretty important part of life, which he represents as the struggle of the body, so he decides to start lifting and working out to participate in that. Then he continues the revelation to realize that at the core of art and the body are the root of death, and that the pursuit of the body is the only way to truly accept and embrace death.

He’s a pretty weird thinker, lots of crazy leaps, vivid ideas, sexual imagery for no reason, very funny philosophies. Just a total alien guy. I think he’s really at his best when he’s discussing more relatable concepts, like how modern society kills through inactivity, how most thinkers are completely undeveloped in their bodily understanding and therefore are unqualified for their own thoughts, and how bodily knowledge is, indeed, truer in a sense than purely intellectual knowledge.

The epilogue sucks dick, I don’t even know what it’s supposed to be about. I think Mishima just wanted a way to symbolize his thoughts, but I think he should have just left it at the essay.

All in all, it’s a nice monologue from a guy who was really conflicted. I particularly like his explicit admittance of feeling insecure because he didn’t make it into the kamikaze fighters, which is like the most clearly vulnerablr admittance of insecurity I’ve seen in a long while. It’s sweet.

6/10

9/24/2024


Do The Work

By Steven Pressfield

Probably the funniest of Steve’s self-help trilogy. All of which deserve a read.

This one’s about how to go about a project, from start to finish.

Best stuff:

Good book, packed full of good anecdotes, funny examples from history, and the tightest, sharpest writing east of Derek

10/10

9/29/2024


Poor Things

Very offensive, brash film. I consider it to be highly effective. The film appears to be complex, but in truth, is dead simple. What would a child think of the world we live in (and the underlying human condition) if they didn’t have our rationalizations of culture?

I think the sex is funny, pretty much a circus film. The guys are as you’d expect, and it exposed a nice little feeling in me about possession and obsession.

The insight is this: be completely earnest at all times. (S)he who does as she wishes will win the world. The men in this world are unhappy because they stake their lives in women, or in their work. It’s really damn hopeless for these guys, really, as I don’t really see a way out here.

6/10

9/25/2024


Sun and Steel

By Yukio Mishima

Trying to communicate some very tangled stuff, this book.

I loved the first half, feels more personal than Mishima’s other stuff. Pretty plain - Mishima realizes that writing is individual, but experiencing life as part of a group is a pretty important part of life, which he represents as the struggle of the body, so he decides to start lifting and working out to participate in that. Then he continues the revelation to realize that at the core of art and the body are the root of death, and that the pursuit of the body is the only way to truly accept and embrace death.

He’s a pretty weird thinker, lots of crazy leaps, vivid ideas, sexual imagery for no reason, very funny philosophies. Just a total alien guy. I think he’s really at his best when he’s discussing more relatable concepts, like how modern society kills through inactivity, how most thinkers are completely undeveloped in their bodily understanding and therefore are unqualified for their own thoughts, and how bodily knowledge is, indeed, truer in a sense than purely intellectual knowledge.

The epilogue sucks dick, I don’t even know what it’s supposed to be about. I think Mishima just wanted a way to symbolize his thoughts, but I think he should have just left it at the essay.

All in all, it’s a nice monologue from a guy who was really conflicted. I particularly like his explicit admittance of feeling insecure because he didn’t make it into the kamikaze fighters, which is like the most clearly vulnerablr admittance of insecurity I’ve seen in a long while. It’s sweet.

6/10

9/24/2024


The Warped Forest

Funny concept, where a weird world is filled with unhappy people who dream of a better life which is actually our world.

It’s just filled with the most mundane nonsense imaginable for the rest of it.

3/10

9/24/2024


The War of Art

By Steven Pressfield

One of the few perfect books. I recommend this to everyone.

If you have any feelings of doubt about the way you spend your time, or have ever struggled to start working on anything you believed in, or even if you’re not 100% focused on or certain about your goals in life, this book is your Holy Bible. Ignore its teachings at your peril.

10/10

9/16/2024


Amadeus

One of the better Cain and Abel stories I’ve seen. This was my second watch, and it wasn’t diminished by it. Mostly because of the performances. I think the actors in this film did a lot with a little, and pulled it off well. Especially Constanze.

I think I still prefer The Fountainhead, but this is pretty darn good stuff. Pretty fun to imagine how real the story was also, even though it’s likely entirely farcicle.

6/10

9/16/2024


Pumping Iron

This film is insane.

I know a lot of it is staged, but it’s probably the best film about sports I’ve seen, besides Olympia.

I’m a huge bodybuilding fan, especially after seeing this one. As a film enjoyer, though, I found way more inspiration in this film than in a lot of others! Maybe it’s because your subject is inherently interesting, so it’s easier to shoot good stuff? I don’t think that’s the whole story. I loved the editing tricks, the simple, sparse narration, the handheld camerawork (always finding the funniest or the most dynamic part of a scene), and even the music choices were golden.

Great film. Best underdog movie ever also.

8/10

9/11/2024


In the Mood for Love

By Wong Kar-wai

Movie is a little long, a little corny, but it’s so beautiful, and it’s really got a lot going on.

I love the drama, the places these people put themselves, and the funny, lighthearted world which exists around them, seemingly entirely unnoticing of their presence. In this world, every married person has an affair, and gets away with it, and only our heroes, the ones with the sweetest intentions and the nicest smiles, get nothing. It’s brutal! But in the end, you sort of realize that they got exactly what they wanted, in a sense.

Anyways, beautiful film. I think it could have been about a half hour shorter, so I take a couple points off, but otherwise I loved it.

7/10

9/10/2024


Madadayo

By Akira Kurosawa

Freah, simple, patient, and personal. I love films like this one!

8/10

9/7/2024


The Dying Earth

Vancian Magic is way cooler than I ever thought it could have been.

Some spells I like:

I also love the facts of magic…

And other grand world ideas…

Anyways, great stuff.

9/10

9/3/2024


A Streetcar Named Desire

Directed by Elia Kazan

Great film, excellent acting, spectacular direction and shots, cool story.

I just don’t understand why people make movies about such weird things! It obviously has to be explored, somehow. Rape, mental problems, obsession, betrayal, lies, desire, self-hatred, anxiety, whatever… It’s good we make some movies about this stuff, but it seems like just about every old film I see is about this stuff.

I get it, man. Taxi Driver is interesting. Noir is cool. But imagine if this sort of artistic energy was pumped into something life-affirming. Something inspirational! Or even just something relatable, man. I don’t get the sense that these filmmakers all struggle from these issues (though many do), but instead are just focusing on the flashiest, shocking parts of life.

Anyways, good film, but such strange subjects!

5/10

8/26/2024


WALL-E

By Pixar

This one’s about in the same ballpark as Ratatouille. Pretty nice film, very well-made. Just felt like the characters were a little obscure, not that clear, and the pace was a little too quick for my liking.

6/10

8/24/2024


Useful, Not True

By Derek Sivers

Great short read.

The book is the culmination of the tight, punch-you-in-the-face curation of ideas that I love about your work, and I’ve come back a couple of times to it already.

I’d say the biggest shift that the book facilitated is not necessarily in introducing new ideas, but giving me the permission to believe and follow ideas which I sometimes ignore in the pursuit of “truth”.

It’s liberating to just follow what’s best for me, without worrying about whether it would extend to others.

Remember that things need not be true to be useful.

8/10


Ratatouille

By Pixar

It was certainly a good film. Very beautiful, obvious care was put into the making of it.

But perhaps the premise is a bit flawed, the characters are a little obscure, and the pace is a little too all over the place for this to be considered another pixar masterpiece.

Less time with the rats, more time with the chef lady, and a different Linguini character (with perhaps a little more change) would have been enough.

I think the most egregious sin the film commits was the one scene where Linguini actually displays some regret for his actions, the film is too busy pulling some gag about a rat eating grapes to give it its full attention. When the film does deign to focus in on just one thing for a time, I am always entranced.

6/10

8/22/2024


Monsters, Inc.

By Pixar

8/10

8/21/2024


Thirty Flights of Loving, Quadrilateral Cowboy, etc.

By Blendo Games

These games are very interesting to me, man.

For one thing, they’re extremely low-fidelity experiences. There are bugs everywhere, the scenarios are hacked together, and I’m uncertain as the player what is intentional and what isn’t. The best parts of this interactive experience are the parts which are staged and scripted, where you don’t have the chance to push the wrong buttons or have to figure out what you’re supposed to do. I really enjoy the tone and the essence of what these games are trying to do, but it’s hamstrung every step of the way.

Game-playing audiences don’t mind it, I guess. Quadrilateral Cowboy beat Inside and Stardew Valley for the Seamus McNally in 2017 (a relatively weak year, but still). This is a testament to how starved video games are for some authentic experience. You put together something which speaks a little bit to some part of the human soul, and people don’t even mind that it’s hardly playable. These guys are one of the only people doing this right now! It’s insane!

Now there are all sorts of game design questions these games bring up, too. Do interactive elements even belong in these experiences? Would they be better as short films? Can this experience be polished? Or does it rely on a sense of uncertainty? But I don’t need to ask too many questions, I just enjoy the ride.

Thanks for making these happen, Blendo. I, for one, got inspired by your games.

6/10

8/17/2024


The Incredibles

By Pixar (Brad Bird)

Nearly perfect. Still holds up. One of the best of ’em.

Also, as a graphics programmer, I’ve got to hand it to Pixar. They did an incredible job in 2004. The water, the hair, the motion… Everything looks great, even today. The one thing they obviously didn’t have figured out back then was the lighting models. You just don’t get any depth out of a picture with Blinn-Phong on diffuse surfaces, and so every character looks a little dead. Also, the modeling is a little funny sometimes.

But the heart and soul of the actors and the writing makes every single moment jump out of the screen. Very good movie!

9/10

8/16/2024


Invisible, Inc

By Klei

This game is a blast. It’s really good at what it’s trying to achieve. Perhaps too good. It turns me into a neurotic wreck, checking things and flying hopelessly into desperate situations.

I had to delete the game. It’s good, but I can’t do it right now! I can tell there’s something really special here if you are more patient, careful, and calm.

6/10

8/13/2024


The Prince of Egypt

This films is definitely grand, and the music is so good too. It gives me chills all the way through! One of the best animated films by far, and for sure the best that Dreamworks ever put out.

8/10

8/9/2024


Swords and Deviltry

By Fritz Lieber

Immaculate Fantasy! Spectacular little tales of sword and sorcery. It’s grit, reality (but not too much), and so authentic to a real experience.

Fritz Lieber obviously has the feeling that prose is poetry, not a separate art, and it’s well at work here.

8/10

7/26/2024


Elden Ring

By From Software

I tried to get into this game 2 or 3 times before, but always felt like it was too bloated, too full of annoying systems and useless systems. I still think it’s full to bursting with nonsense, but I eventually learned how to work around it, and the rest of the game is a good time.

When I say “work around”, I mean ignoring collecting, crafting, most if the repeated dungeons and bosses, and a large majority of the user messages. It’s interesting to me how games today try to do everything all at once. It’s a shame, since it does most things at a lower quality than it could, but Elden Ring (and other good recent games, like Zelda TOTK) solves the problem by making all the nonsense systems completely optional. But any discerning player will see that the problem is entirely self-imposed, and I wonder who these systems are even for, in the end.

I can’t complain about the core game itself, obviously the tightest souls combat thus far, but this game is sadly one more nail in the coffin for simple, elegant experiences.

6/10

7/24/2024


Jesus Christ Superstar

I know very little of the story this is based on. I’ve heard all sorts of hearsay. But this rendition is impeccable! It’s personal, raw, sweet, and mystical. It really makes the story seem huge.

The production is incredible too. The actors, especially Judas, are perfect, and their direction is excellent. And god, the editing! I can hardly believe some of the montages, the cuts, and the crazy ideas in this film.

I’d like to hear more about this story. Not the morals or the messages. Not the interpretations, but the mysteries themselves. I wonder what it would mean to really consider a story like this. To listen.

8/10

7/22/2024


The Hunchback of Notre Dame

This is my new favorite Disney animated film. So simple, so barebones, but the lightning pace makes everything fresh, the characters keep you involved, and the musical sequences are the best in any of these films.

I’m still a huge Alan Menken fan. This time, not for his melodies (they’re okay), but for the orchestration and the punch he brings to every moment.

-1 for the gargoyles. I’m still of the opinion that all of these films would be strictly better if you removed the comic sidekicks. No Mushu in Mulan, no raccoon in Pocahontas, no Danny Devito in Hercules, etc.

9/10

7/20/2024


Yojimbo

By Akira Kurosawa

7/10

7/17/2024


Sam Wilkes, Craig Weinrib, Dylan Day

This album is all instrumental, just three guys, and heavily improvised.

I think it might be the most sensitive album I’ve ever heard! The vulnerability of the players gives way to wonderful, simple sonic exploration, and the feeling which arises from it is that of sheer warmth, even in songs which are desperate, melancholic, and lost. There is indeed something warm in all three of those feelings, and these three guys reminded me of that today.

Favorite track: How Insensitive

8/10

7/15/2024


Being Aware of Being Aware

By Rupert Spira

This short book is an excellent distillation of Rupert Spira’s ideas, and he cares so deeply about making the teachings simple, plain, accessible, and yet still retain their depth.

This is my second read, and I still love this book!

8/10

7/14/2024


The Girl Who Leapt Through Time

By Mamoru Hosoda

This film’s animation details are incredible! Such great unexpected tone, pace, and character changes. I think the main character is one of the most dynamically animated characters in animation.

It’s a shame the details are animating this stupid story, but this film has some really special moments that are worth watching. I especially like the scenes of high school after hours, when the evening sun is coming down, and everything’s sort of empty but so full of warmth at the same time. I’m a sucker for that stuff.

5/10

7/12/2024


Summer Wars

By Mamoru Hosoda

Haha talk about a real thrill-ride. This film does everything you could possibly imagine, to the max.

It’s full of true stuff, lovable characters, and some pretty crafty cinematography. I guess I’m just thinking that this film has better shots throughout than any of Hosoda’s work with Madhouse otherwise. I wonder what was in the air in 2009. And I wonder how this guy could make so many good films, and now everything he makes is terrible.

7/10

7/5/2024


The Boy and the Beast

By Mamoru Hosoda

This one’s alright. I think it’s my least favorite of Hosoda’s four good films. I get some legitimate feelings from the montages, and that’s mostly due to Takagi-san’s soundtrack. Masterful as always! But most of it is pretty childish. The pacing is wonky and the story is dumb.

4/10

7/3/2024


The Book of Life

By Jiddu Krishnamurti

Austere, annihilating.

A philosophy with no parallel. Unique, but utterly factual. Makes all other works into opinion by contrast.

While Krishnamurti does not exactly construct values himself, I would consider his spirit to be as close to Nietzsche’s Ubermensch as imaginable. In fact, he very nearly deconstructs that idea too. Of course, that deconstruction is a prerequisite for the ubermensch, but I didn’t expect a being this pure and simple to be the thing to reevaluate all values.

Read it, and disintegrate!

10/10

6/30/2024


Sanjuro

By Akira Kurosawa

This movie is hilarious! The funniest one I’ve seen by this guy Kurosawa.

The film feels like D&D should be. Crazy plans, going awry, and then improvisation. Character dynamics and growth. Nothing flashy, just plain and simple fun.

Huge fan of this one, even over Yojimbo. Also playing a part in that is the 90 minute runtime. In a toss-up, I’ll always back the shorter film.

8/10

6/23/2024


Saving Private Ryan

By Steven Spielberg

I wasn’t really gripped by this film, but we had a really good time together.

I guess it was sort of a mixed bag to me. The best violence I’ve seen in one of these war pictures. The worst camerawork. The sweetest characters. The weirdest conversations in the strangest places.

Anyways, I liked it, but I didn’t get choked up, so I’d say the film didn’t really work for me.

5/10

6/23/2024


High and Low

By Akira Kurosawa

Wow! Now that’s a movie. I think this is my new favorite Kurosawa film. I think I generally like the modern-times films even more than the samurai films, since Kurosawa’s characters are so relatable and sweet in the modern day.

The first half of this film is unparalleled. The back half slows down just a hair, but I’d say it still works.

I particularly love the silhouette work in the house. I guess I’ve been watching these one-room dramas recently, same basic premise as in Reservoir dogs. This one’s tension is so much more relatable to me though, and truer and more pure, too.

9/10

6/23/2024


Reservoir Dogs

By Quentin Tarantino

I liked the film, quite a lot! I thought the cast was so cool, and the setup is pretty crafty. I think the flash of this film is sort of worn off today, but I can see its influence now.

6/10

6/23/2024


Fist of Fury

This film is really sloppy, and it doesn’t have much to teach.

Choreo is great, though, and the intensity of the filmmaking style along with Bruce Lee’s performance is pretty cool.

On that note, I’ve also been reading that book Striking Thoughts, which is just Lee’s journal, and it’s pretty much what you’d expect. I guess Lee has a lot of ideas in a lot of areas, but I’m only really interested in his intensity. I have little to learn from his thoughts.

I guess that’s how I feel about a lot of things now. I don’t care much about the actual ideas of the heroes - of Nietzsche, Emerson, Adler, more modern folks like Jon Blow, Derek Yu, Naval Ravikant, Derek Sivers… All that matters to me is their intensity. Their single-minded focus, or their absolute confidence in life’s value, or their unwavering determination towards some specific end. It’s focus, pure and simple.

These films show that intensity, but are otherwise pretty hard to watch. I think I like Enter the Dragon a little bit more.

3/10

6/22/2024


Downwell

By Ojiro Fumoto

This game is everything that I love about video games.

Simple, honest, clear premise. A chance to push yourself. It’s all up to you!

I’d probably consider this to be my favorite game these days, and I haven’t even gotten past the halfway point.

It’s clear that this game came out of a long run of game-a-week style projects. The thirteenth, I believe. That’s great. A season of games! Then this. Very cool.

Thanks, Fumoto-san.

9/10

6/22/2024


Good Will Hunting

Film’s real good. I was expecting it to have no edge at all, but yeah, Matt and Ben do a great job bringing this thing down to earth. I can tell these guys really felt that way about that time and place.

I think the Elliot Smith soundtrack is pretty good too. I like soft songs over films a lot.

7/10

6/20/2024


Pocahontas

By Disney Animation Studios

Alan Menken, the songwriter for this movie, must be a genius. The songs are so simple, and yet they force me to consider such intricate and emotional subjects of my own soul, that I almost can’t believe he can do it.

The plot is contrived, of course, and the characters are silly, but who could ask for more?

The songs in this film, and their accompanying animations, are as close to Wolf Children’s segments that I think anyone’s made. I love these sections more than anything, particularly in this film, the Colors of the Wind.

7/10

6/19/2024


Wide Awake!

By Parquet Courts

Punk is great, man. I think this album is actually bringing me around on making art again. It’s this line, mostly: “Open your mouth. Pollinate your peers.”

Favorite songs: Almost Had to Start a Fight, Total Football, Tenderness

9/10

6/16/2024


The Imitation Game

I have less than no interest in the stories of human dominance at the moment. I don’t know what it is about films like this that just don’t do anything for me.

It’s sort of like Television - plus documentary. I guess it’s like those History Channel drama-docs, where every scene is as tense as it can be, and every character is trying so hard to impose their will on every other character.

Just sick to death of this sort of thing. Could have had a glimpse into this guy’s heart - into this guy’s mind…

2/10

6/14/2024


The Conversation

By Francis Ford Coppola

A man can only take so much of this gnarly noir stuff. But if it’s this kinda film, I like it.

Performances in these movies are always pretty weird. Stilted, sexual, and inhuman. I think the actors are mostly trying to put you at unease, rather than portray a real guy or gal.

Audio in this film is impeccable, though. I can’t believe they were able to pull this off!

6/10

6/9/2024


Bartleby, the Scrivener

People back in those days talk so funny, I just can’t help but chuckle. Great work, Herman.

7/10

6/9/2024


Olympia

By Leni Riefenstahl

By far the most beautiful film I’ve ever seen, visually. Also, some incredible cinematography, and the athletes are the best characters you could imagine.

The film has a big impact on me, both in what I think is possible, and in what I think is valuable.

8/10

6/1/2024


Five Centimeters Per Second

By Makoto Shinkai

This film is like a dream. I think this film is part of my heart forever now.

9/10

5/27/2024


Suzume

By Makoto Shinkai

I’m sure that Makoto Shinkai’s heart is still in this film somewhere, and i see where he’s coming from with the whole Kafka on the Shore angle, but these films these days… how can they keep doing all this fantasy nonsense?

I don’t even really know what it’s all for.

The plot of this film reads like Final Fantasy. The Anime bullshit is off the charts. There’s some sweet characters, but they’re constantly just left baffled by the main character’s inability to communicate her weird fantasy situation, so they can only get so close.

Again, this film has some decent qualities, like the pace and the look, but i can’t cut it these days with the fantasy/anime stuff man, just can’t cut it anymore.

4/10

5/27/2024


The Godfather

By Francis Ford Coppola

Second watch.

Thing I noticed this time around: Michael is talking to his dad near the end, and Vito says that he wanted Michael to have the keys to power. He wanted his boy to be a senator, governor…It’s like the reason for all this power brokering is made clear. Vito’s whole dream is that the little guy can grow to pave his own way. It’s nicely explored in the second film, when Vito’s young, but it makes a little more sense why the Corleone do what they do in this film.

On that note, I still do think these guys are weird. The Sicilians, no matter their declarations of focus on family and honor, are still doing nasty stuff.

7/10

5/26/2024


Paper Mario TTYD

By Intelligent Studios

Game is alright. Only a few hours played.

I think the trouble with this kind of game is that the whole thing is just stringing you along, trying to get you to be excited about stupid things.

It’s a subtle form of disrespect, and I don’t like it!

2/10

5/26/2024


Dark Souls 2

By From Software

A marvelous game. Maybe my favorite of the bunch.

7/10

5/25/2024


The Beginner’s Guide

By Davey Wreden

This game single-handedly restored my faith in the narrative game. It’s very constrained, and it isn’t really interested in the sorts of ludo-truth that art games tend to exploit.

Rather, it’s more like Everyday Shooter. A game which is more about a subtle feeling than any obvious truth in its mechanics.

Every time I hear about games like The Marriage or Passage - games I’m most certainly in favor of, by the way - I think: “Yeah, it’s meaningful, but isn’t it obvious?”

The games have a “moral of the story”, which is communicated in the language of games, but it’s still just a moral of the story. Like a children’s fable. It’s not subtle, or deep, or continually interesting. It’s cool, and it’s on the right track, but we haven’t communicated subtle things like feeling through mechanics yet.

This game, The Beginner’s Guide, doesn’t try to use the language of games on their own. It’s whole-heartedly a hybrid project between literature and games. And I’d say it works wonders in that niche.

While we still have a ways to go in developing the language of games in themselves, keep in mind, my friends, that most every film worth watching is also a script and a dance and an engineering effort.

Good art is a mix. Let’s not forget that in our pursuit of art in games.

8/10

5/21/2024


Animal Well

By Billy Basso

Animal Well is the latest Super Metroid ripoff. It’s a good game.

I wonder, though… How long can we keep making the same game? We’ve done variations, polished it to perfection, and put personal spins on it.

But what is there really to learn from these games? What’s the point? Where’s the soul? What’s the feeling?

Can it all really come down to this vibe, these keys and doors, and this stringing along? Animal Well is great fun, and it’s a masterpiece, but I just don’t know if it’s the kind of thing which compels me anymore…

5/10

5/1/2024


Everyday Shooter

By Jonathan Mak

This is a game with a feeling, an essence, a philosophy, and a clear passion.

9/10

5/18/2024


Hosono House

By Haruomi Hosono

Low-key-est album ever. I love this thing.

I want to learn how Hosono produces music. It’s always the most low-volume stuff ever, but it still feels full. His instruments are so simple, and he makes such good stuff out of em.

9/10

5/18/2024


Mind Game

By Masaaki Yuasa

This film is TO THE MAX!!! Probably my favorite movie these days.

Endlessly relatable, filled with real-life stuff, and just non-stop punches in the face.

Also check out Yuasa’s shows. Ping Pong and Tatami Galaxy are both great.

9/10

5/18/2024


Jonathan Blow on deep work

I think this talk is probably a must-watch for creators of all types.

Essentially:

This talk is also pretty well expressed by John Cleese’s book on Creativity, and David Lynch’s Catching the Big Fish.

8/10

5/18/2024


Chris Crawford’s Dragon talk

If you’re into video games, this is required viewing. Classic talk.

7/10

5/18/2024


How To Live

By Derek Sivers

Derek’s best book. You’ll be thinking all sorts of stuff by the end.

8/10

5/18/2024


Morrowind

By Bethesda Game Studios

Morrowind is a weird combination, but it turns out to be pretty much the best RPG ever made.

Shitty tabletop-simulator combat, wikipedia hyperlink dialogue where everyone says the same thing, endless copy-paste content, and early 3D-accelerator era graphics. Sure, sure, it’s got flaws. But what Morrowind does best is its obtuse mechanics. The weird stuff.

The fact that your starting movement speed is a snail’s pace; the way you have to learn how to ride the bus to get anywhere; the quest writing - this is a game with more weirdos than Zelda.

There’s a whole culture of people who know how to levitate, so they don’t build stairs into their houses. If you want to talk to them, you have to be able to levitate. If you can’t, you’re out of luck.

These sorts of obtuse things are dying out in video games. The sharp edges are smoother now than ever.

That’s why you should play Morrowind.

9/10

5/18/2024


Wolf Children

By Mamoru Hosoda

This was my favorite movie for a couple years. I think I watched it seven times in a week once.

It’s so earnest, full of heart, and simple! It’s a story with no conceits, a simple outlook, and a real sense of people. Pair that with Masakatsu Takagi’s beautiful score, and some of the best montage sequences in animation.

Anyways, I love this film. I also really like Hosoda’s The Boy and the Beast and Summer Wars, but his new stuff pretty much universally sucks. I just don’t know how a guy can make a film like Wolf Children and then also make a film like Belle

9/10

5/18/2024


Innovation in Games panel, GDC 2007

With Steve Swink, Kyle Gabler, Jonathan Blow, Jonathan Mak, and Jenova Chen.

This panel shakes me up every time I watch it! Five legends of indie games, essentially agreeing that what matters in game design is not innovation, but rather the essential nature of the game you’re designing.

Mak’s perspective is my favorite of the bunch. Can’t wait to see what they make next. Also really good is Chen’s perspective on entertainment being like food for the soul. This is operationally true, and seems more intuitive every time I watch this talk.

For more on this topic, check out Jonathan Blow’s page on games and feeling.

8/10

5/18/2024


Ocean Waves OST

By Shigeru Nagata

This album is an absolute classic. It’s been my companion for years now. So laid back, playful, exciting, refined, and simple. It’s the pinnacle of 90s Yamaha synth music, and the sounds are unmatched.

Bonus points if you also check out the terrible Studio Ghibli movie that this soundtrack is attached to. Super weird combination - the film and the OST both have a real sense of nostalgia, but go at it in different ways. OST succeeds, film fails. It’s pretty funny to watch, though.

9/10

5/18/2024


The Courage to be Disliked

By Ichiro Kishime and Fumitake Koga

This book made my life go from sad to glad! If you read this book and try to really think about it, I think you’ll be glad too.

Basically: life is real simple, and human beings are free.

If you read one book ever, it better be this one!

10/10

5/18/2024


The Royal Tenenbaums

Wes Anderson

Best looking movie I’ve seen in a long while. Weirdo movie I love Luke Wilson The thing stands on the shoulders of the songs, though. Film falls flat without the Velvet Underground and Van Morrison

Liked the weird stuff wes was trying here though, like the slow mo shot when gwyneth gets off the bus Or the suicide smash cuts Some cool ideas.

Characters actually came alive here too.

6/10

12/30/2023


Rear Window

12/20/2023

Brilliant stuff. Characters all act so weird in Hitchcock movies.

6/10


The Usual Suspects

12/19/2023

Wacky stuff, man. Cool twist.

6/10


Vertigo

This film was weird… But has some cool stuff.

5/10

12/04/2023


Lawrence of Arabia

11/27/2023

Woohoo! Holy Shit!!!

6/10


Citizen Kane

Eh, nice film, but it’s pretty weird now haha

5/10

11/04/2023


Bottle Rocket

Wes Anderson

This movie reawakened a love of art in me.

8/10

10/21/2023